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Death [23 Apr 2005|10:56am]
Death seems reasonable right now.

stuff [06 Apr 2005|09:12pm]
Well...Today was really shitty, and it kinda made me go what the fuck a little. I heard from someone in the hallway during a tornado drill that steph was going to leave me for some dude, so naturally I was mad, so I went to talk to her after 6th hour...Well, I approached her prickish, but I was mad, she got mad at me because she said she'd never do that. And she got mad because she said that she thought I trsuted her, which I do. Well, I think everything is ok now as far as me and her. BUT she is mad at chelsea, like her bestfriend and it makes me sad knowing I someone how caused it apprently. She thinks chelsea told me, which so DID NOT do that...

[04 Apr 2005|04:25pm]
I am done, and I am happy. Me and Steph are going to start over, and it's going to be great.

Last night [03 Apr 2005|12:29pm]
Last night was a lot of fun. We went to Southpoint and walked around for awhile, then, Steph and Jayma went to the tattoo place and Jayma got a tattoo, me and D explored Lincoln...what fun. We went to Red Robin after that, the food was shit. The nwe went back to South Point and messed around. We came back to Beatrice and drove around. Fun? Right now...I am thinking about crap, and it's not a lot of fun...I am confused, like always, I need to figure life out, badly. I don't know what to do half of the time, tonight In eed ot talk to Steph, and I really don't know the outcome. I want to be with her, but I'd rather her be happy, and I feel like I can't do that right now. I will sign this shit later if anything goes on.

Today [02 Apr 2005|12:34pm]
It's noon, it's gay. I am willing to bed the Pope will die between now and 7 tonight. It's Steph's birthday, I was the first to tell her happy birthday, because I am the best. I wonder what we're going to do today. I am pissed though because the flower thing fell through...ahh...gayness...anyways...Out.
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. [30 Mar 2005|04:57am]
Ot's too early, but I had the worst dream I've had in a long time last night, and it scared me beyond bad. I am really confused in my life right now, it's probably obvious after reading my last post, but, it keeps getting more and more complex I guess. There's not a doubt in my mind I could be with Steph forever, as lame as it is to say, I know we haven't been together long at all, it's just when I'm with her...I am happy, completely happy, and I;ve never had that feeling before. I love her, more than words could explain, but I truthfully don't know why. And it bothers me, I just have strong feelings for her, I think I need her in my life. I don't think she believes how much I love her, and it bothers me I guess...Anyways, I need to figure life out, and I really don't want to, I need to let it happen as hard as it's going to be.

ehh [29 Mar 2005|09:33pm]
I hate to say this, I really do...But my mom is making my "love" life horrid. I can't treat my girlfriend like shit because I worry about what the deal is with my mom, I know my mom loves me, but it's hard to grasp it, it feels like she abandoned me for 3 years....I am too fucking done with shit to continue typing.

[28 Mar 2005|08:40am]
I really like this song,and I couldn't find the lyrics, so I am hand typing it.

I'm wearing thin, wearing out, becoming weak.
Holding hands with this rope, she's my self destructive.
Bleeding disease, the thing that makes it hard to breathe.
But if I shoved you far away.
This addiction just starved again, asphyxiated.
And now I see it's you tearing me, ensuring me.
This is me dying in your arms I cut you down, now set me free.
Lynched high above what use to be.
In her gallows built for me, so I escaped cut this noose from my neck.
So I break free to see the things you blinded me.
And I shoved you far away.
Now I live the life I dreamed of.
You're dead to me.
You poisoned my life.
So I take this knife.
And cut you out.

Maybe lame until you hear the music.

[28 Mar 2005|08:30am]
Forgive my shit-tastic spelling

A lot. [28 Mar 2005|08:25am]
Well, last night, I decided I am a moody prick to people. I've known it for a long time, but it's starting to really get to me. I am a dick to Steph, which is the one person I should owe the world too. She means a lot to me, and I don't want to lose her over my stupid mood swings. Anyways, I am talking to my dad today and hopefully going to the doctors to get it checked out. It worried me when I read this thing about Unipoloar disorder, and I had 18 out of the 20 symptoms, so I think In eed to bring that up. I don't want to go to school tomorrow....
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Me And D [27 Mar 2005|11:44am]
We are sitting here, bored, eating eggs. We love you, ecspecially Suki, because she's the shit.
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[19 Mar 2005|12:03am]
[ mood | amused ]

And by Mmm, I mean, that's what sex is.


Sex is.. [19 Mar 2005|12:01am]
[ mood | relaxed ]



Last night/this morning.. [18 Mar 2005|11:45am]
Pretty good, I had a ok time last night, but, you know, I decided why I worry too much. I always take my home life (with my mom being gone for so long, now being back) into my relationship, which is retarded, and I decided also, there is no reason fori t, so I am way happier now. By the way, download my current music.

Nothing really, just first entry. [17 Mar 2005|09:29am]
[ mood | Lonely ]

Well, today is lame so far, Steph came over last night, we had a talk, and I think everything will be cool between us, I love her a lot, and I could seriously spend my life with her. I just adore her...I worry a lot though, which kind of can be bad, just past relationships, it blows but yeah, I don't know.

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